Sunday, December 10, 2006

Wonder of the season....


....of the year, actually. After some really dark times and coming to peace with a lot of it, some good things appear to be coming my way.

There is reason to hope that 2007 will be a much better year for me personally than 2006.

I'm sleeping better more consistently. The FM pain is still there but it's been manageable for almost a month as long as I'm careful. There's even real possibility of effective treatment for fibromyalgia in the foreseeable future. My best friend, my sons and new daughter-in-law are along for the ride. After a LOT of negative experiences with online dating sites (from being rejected the moment my pic was available to rudeness - it was unrelenting in its variety - to an acquaintance rape situation last month that entirely undermined me for a while), and finally getting to a place where I was really okay alone and possibly even better off alone for various reasons, someone nice has come into my life. Remember the list? He fits, not just a little bit but very specifically. For now, anyway. It's been a pleasant surprise and it's fun exploring a new friendship, wherever it may lead and however long it lasts. I'm enjoying the kindness I seemed to have seen so little of for too long. I've sorted out some other friendships, let one go, rebuilt another, am considering what to do about a third one.

Last Christmas when I was once again decorating by myself (my younger son couldn't care less about the decorating *chuckle*), missing Michael and missing my older son who was away yet again, with every ornament reminding me of one or the other or both, I decided that this year I would make some changes. So I changed my colour scheme after 26 years of the same, started picking up ornaments back in January with that in mind and am enjoying the change.

I realize now that 2006 has been a year of transition all the way around. From changing my surroundings, becoming more creative, stepping outside my comfort zone in every area of my life, standing up for myself, plunging forward. There have been a lot of growing pains and I'm sure there are more to come, but tonight at least I'm feeling capable of weathering the storms.

And, in the meantime, there are pretty lights to photograph.


4 Comments:

Blogger Karoli said...

I'm glad to hear things are looking up. It's been a weird, tough, rollercoaster kind of year. I'm enjoying ending mine with a spate of random giving to people who expect absolutely nothing, who are strangers but not strangers, and who are in some kind of need. I hope it's a harbinger of the year to come, too. :)

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Blogger SwampHag said...

Thanks DnW. :-) I'm glad you're having so much fun at the end of this rollercoaster year. I've often done the same and it's a sure path to happier times.

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